I guess it's been a while....

My nostalgia must be at an all time high. I'm listening to Beyoncé's first solo album. I think it came out in 2003, so tonight is full throwback mode. I"m trying to decide on what to do about blogging. I find myself sad that some of my favorite bloggers haven't updated in quite a while, though I'm deeply guilty of having completely and utterly fallen out of blogging, I have come back over the years to check on some of my faves to see how things have progress. I wish I could say an urge to write overcame me and brought me back to the blog, but that's not what happened. My uncle in California sent me some poetry today. The writing was good and made me consider to send him some back. I thought, it's been so long since I've written anything at all, where the heck would I find any of my stuff? Then it occurred to me that I had once posted a few things on my blog a while back and I should saunter over and look up something that may be halfway decent to send. Well, I started re-reading posts rather than look for the aforementioned poetry. It was painful of the embarrassing sort and comical in a self-deprecating way to re-read my life so long ago. That brought on the urge to try to log back into my blog. It took quite of bit of maneuvering and dredging up of ancient email accounts and passwords. But I eventually made it back in, though I guess that's somewhat obvious by the post, huh? I think it's weird that my first LGBT community was faceless and nameless. I met and connected to many of you through words alone, through my little digital distress signal being broadcast. It's my deep hope that you are all well and thriving. -E

Attention Surplus/Deficit Disorder

Though it is probably not clinically correct, that's what I feel like I have. There are times I can't focus to save my life. I was reading some iteration of one of the twilight novels in spanish and found it very hard to concentrate. Then I have periods where something interests me and I will search vehemently throughout the internet until I have satisfied my thirst for knowledge. There are a number of occasions when I have forgone sleep to research something I read on a blog or an article, or some book has grasped me to the point that I would rather read than sleep. The most power vehicle is undoubtedly YouTube. It is simultaneously one of my favorite online experiences and the greatest annoyance in my life. I consider that website the catalyst for the substantial amount, or more appropriately the lack of sleep I have suffered over the past 5 years.

iCan't Believe It

I am writing my very first entry from my iPhone. While I was preparing to post earlier I thought, surely there is an app for this; and true enough there in the App Store I found it. I had no idea that an hour later I would get the news that Steve Jobs had passed away. So it is fitting tribute that I write from here.

I find that I am no less moved by Steve's passion to make his dreams come true & augment our knowledge on what is possible than by the actual products he helped to create. All of our days are numbered, but we immortalize ourselves in the people that we touch, the places that we go, & the purposes that we work toward. His transformative touch changed the way we listen, read, & react to the world around us and there is no higher mark to press toward than that. Well done, Steve.


John Mayer - Stop This Train

Dating

I've decided its past time. I've noted before that I signed up for Adam4Adam. This was done with the express purpose of finding a date; but as I am wont to do I ended up being so immersed in work for the last 11 months that I had not gone on. Until last week. It had to be sheer horniness, or loneliness; I do not know which is more powerful, that forced me back onto the site. I uploaded a picture and went to work looking for a boyfriend.

I acutely understood that most of the active members were probably on for the express purpose of hooking up, and though I didn't have disimilar aims, I did want to actually meet people. I've gone to West Hollywood (gay central of Los Angeles on many occasions, but had yet to actually summon the nerve to talk to anyone besides the my friend(s) that I'd brought along. I saw online as a more passive way to meet and connect with people. The result: Saturday I went on my first date with a guy. Ever.

Re-read

Just re-read the draft to my 'moving to California post'. It is an interesting experience for me to get a true read on how I felt at certain intervals in my life. I find I have often...succumb to what I should do, think or say, instead of acting in accordance with how I truly feel. It was interesting to see an umblemished record of my life through my perspective and not a jaded recollection later down the line. I wonder if other bloggers get the same experience when rereading their own posts.

It is sad to see several of the bloggers who I have followed have stopped writing. I myself am no less guilty of the same crime; yet there are those who press on much to my delight.

Sneaking...

Sooo been trying to adjust to the west coast. I love it and have blogged a long explanation of my time off and what's been going on. It's still under construction as it's kind of lengthy. I have trying to keep up with everyone, though it's a bit difficult. Birthday next week. Who wants to go to Vegas?!

Vacation Over

Well, in my last post I said that my next post would be coming from Manhattan Beach. I came and left and had a great time in between. That was about four weeks ago; and yet this post is from California nonetheless. That is because I am now a resident of the state. Yeah, you read that correct. I loved the place so much that I moved there...here. I went back to my old life for a few weeks, wrapped my time there up and moved to Los Angeles.


At first, while I was toying with the idea of moving out west all the logistics of such a move seemed like a staggering task and though it was, I somehow managed it. Please excuse my momentary self satisfaction. I must admit to feeling quite accomplished for having pulled this off. The whole thing happened so quickly it was like I had never even left to go back and gather up my life in the first place.

I am at the moment being forced to help a relative [living on the other side of the country] with a presentation, so I'll have to explain exactly HOW a vacation, turned into a complete rearranging of my life a but later. Love reading what's been happening with you all.